positioning

status gw for next two years at that hospital is… a trainee! katakankan begitu. cuz ada kemungkinan gw gugur kalo gak lulus pra jabatan.
so that, all i have to do is learning! train my self. enrich me with experiences and knowledge. that is it. jadi kalo masa trainee gw udah berakhir, gw harus udah jadi orang yg jauh lebih pinter dari sekarang!

Ganbatte!!!

Take this girl out

Mencurigai ada konspirasi antara my dad n his colleague.
seems want to gather two family thru me.
ya gini deh risiko still being single di umur yg udah nearly twenty five (i am twenty three ryt now).
jodohin sana, kenalin sini, meski yg kemaren2 gw belum dilibatkan secara langsung.
asikin aja.
kalo bukan jodoh, mau diapain juga tetep gak akan kena! hohoho.
jadi, kenapa takut?!
sukur2 bisa nambah kenalan buat bisnis di masa yang akan datang. hekekekeke.

i want this one as my birthday present!!

gw mengalami gangguan gastrointestinal these days. kemarin mulai mereda, dan tengah malam tadi kambuh. sampe gw merasa dehidrasi, kepala jadi agak puyeng berasa kekurangan ion dan oxygen. gw d rumah parents, but i didnt tell them, karena gw tau mereka pasti lebay kalo khawatir.

dan gw jadi bete pas pg tadi mereka agak maksa nyuruh gw nyetir, gw capek, please leave me alone. i was unwell.

huft,, setelah mereka pergi jjp tanpa gw, dan gw memberi sedikit waktu pada logika, gw jd menyesal!! harghh.. dah lama gak pegang setir. harusnya gw td terima aja tawarannya T.T

dan gw memutuskan: sedapat mungkin berusaha dapet sim a sbage hadiah ultah buat gw. dua bulan lagi! bisa kah?!

pertama2 yg harus gw lakukan adl beradaptasi sebaik2nya dg lingkungan baru gw. tmpat kos, tempat kerja. hunting tempat kursus, then mengatur expenditure sedemikian rupa shg gw gak jadi kere karna ikut kursus mengemudi dan ngurus sim a.

dua bulan lagi gw ultah!
bulan ini gw harus udah merasa nyaman d lumajang.
bulan depan gw harus sudah mulai bergerak.

semangat! semoga gw bisa mencapainya!!

Things that i dont understand

no,no,no, and no.
sorry if i refuse all the things you want me to do. i'm tired to be forced to do this or that. i had done other things u want before. is that not enough for u? Whateva! but that's enough for me!!

i dont hate you, i just hate the way you treat me as a kid. i hate the way u worry about me. i hate the way u control my life!
i am me. i am my life. try to warn me if i do wrong. but dont take control of me. i am not a bird, but i wanna be free like em.

devil in my mind

awalnya mikir yang gak enak-gak enak tentang hidup baru gw.

tempat kost lima kamar yang tiga diantaranya terisi (termasuk gw), bukan kost mahasiwa, gak ada acara nonton tivi bareng, cari makan bareng, jalan-jaran bareng like i did when i was college student.  apa enaknya?  nothing.  kost yang tempat cuci bajunya nebeng di rumah induk semang, jemurnya pun demikian.  aduh susahnya.  tempat tinggal baru gw ini deket ma dinkes, tapi ternyata gw ditempatkan sedikit agak jauh darisini karena jalan harus memutar.  duuu...belum lagi gw mikir nanti gw begaul di tempat kerja ma orang2 tuwir gitu... bisa penuaan dini neh!

pusing yah kalo fokus sama yang gak enak kayak gitu.

akhirnya gw putuskan untuk menekan f5.  refreshhhhhh... dan mulai berpikir lebih positif.

kost gw itu deket banget sama alun-alun jadi kalo liburan gw bisa joging disitu.  ada joging tracknya juga loh...

karena deket alun-alun, otomatis juga deket sama masjid agung, jadi kalo ramadhan tiba nanti gw bisa tarawih disana.  duu... indahnya dunia.

deket ma bank bni dan atmnya juga

kalo naek angkot turunnya gampang.

gw bawa motor jadi jarak 10 menit dari kost ke rumah sakit tempat gw kerja sebenernya bukan masalah besar.

semalem gw maen ke kamar sebelah, namanya kak indri, orangnya welcome bgt ternyata... kita ngobrol, dia cerita banyak hal, termasuk kalo nyuci di kamar mandi gak papa kok daripada capek2 naik turun nebeng sama ibu kost.  meski jemuran di balkon seadanya...

trus kenyataannya temen2 baru gw di tempat kerja juga banyak yang sebaya.  gak takut penuaan dini lagi dehh...

hmm... trus apa enaknya tinggal disini? tuuhhh semua yang gw sebut enak!

apa gak asiknya?  gak adaaa...!!!!

Nothing wrong with this dress I wear
Nothing wrong with this smile I dare
Nothing wrong with my long black hair
It’s all in your mind, in your mind

-Anggun C Sasmi~In Your Mind~

hal yang sama bisa jadi salah, bisa jadi bener, bisa jadi bagus, jelek, enak, gak enak, tergantung pikiran kita masing2.  daripada mati muda gara2 kebanyakan negative thinking, lebih baik awt muda dengan banyak2 berpositive thinking :)

soulmate

who doesn't long for someone to hold who know how to love u without being told?

-nat.bedingfield~soulmate-

i'm sure that everybody long for it. and i am one of them.

today i met my fellow student, we've been separated since we were graduated from senior high school. then we had a chit chat, and the topic (as usual) run into relationship status. who is my boyfriend? when will i get married? do i know that mr.x, mrs.y has already married? And just like usual i told them that i am single fighter now.

yes. i am longing for someone to hold. i am longing for somebody who know how to love me without being told.

someday when my friend ask me the same thing, sure i will answer.. i am married, have three cute kids, please come to my house. do u know where is it? ah,ya, u don't know. okay,just call me whenever u want to come, i will pick u up with my white honda jazz. hehehe. yea,, my husband gave it to me as birthday present. hehehehe.

keep dreaming, girl! wish your dreams come true.

kobarkan Semangatku!

Too many advise. i hear but i'm tired to listen. hey... i'm not a lil kid anymore!!

The only one i accepted is selalu semangat!!! cuz everthing will gonna be fun if i do it with full spirit q^^p

s.e.m.a.n.g.a.t

hal2 kecil akan jd besar bila kamu melakukannya dg kesungguhan yg besar.